The snow is coming down, again! I love snow, but when it hinders my ability to leave my house I begin to resent it! There is just something about snow that is beautiful and pure, covering everything in it's path with "whiteness". Snow quiets everything as well, absorbing the sounds of life and nature. There is just something about snow that words can't quiet describe, something I long for in my own life, a purity and quietness in my soul, a calm that is inviting and comforting.
Lately I have been reading a lot more that I usually do. I am hungering for truth and convictions that will cause my heart to change. I feel this "something" stirring deep within me. I am not sure how to describe it. My heart aches to help others, but I need to be okay if I can't "fix" others. I want to listen to their heart and to respond from mine. I find that I am still so guarded and I am not sure what is holding me back. To really examine my journey and my "walls" is difficult and I find that I put others to the test, are they really worthy to see my heart. Do I trust this person, are they really interested in coming along with me on my journey?? All are tough questions, questions I am not sure I will ever stop asking, but I must try to quiet myself and just enjoy their company, even if they aren't able to travel very far with me.
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Seems appropriate here to say there is great maturity in your words wise friend of mine. Then being yeilded to Him is simply letting down our walls and open to His lead. Feels like there is such a depth we cannot reach. We can. We'll just keep walking. I'll go with you. :)
I love your last sentence. Also, remember you won't be able to trust others--but you have a God that is completely trustworthy!
"are they REALLY interested in coming along with me on my journey"
I too ask this question. How would I know? The whispers of previous betrayals invite me to live in suspicion and hyper-vigilance.
I loved your conclusion...
"I must try to quiet myself and just enjoy their company, even if they aren't able to travel very far with me."
Me too.
thanks for sharing.
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