Living is hard

It's been awhile, sometimes I want to blog, but then I find myself guarded in what I might say and then it just feels like it's not worth it. Anyway, today I'm just really tired. I'm physically and mentally tired. Life is going by and I have much to do, but I really just want to crawl back into bed and sleep. I don't want to think or feel today. I want to run back into my hiding place and have an "easy" day. Living life to the full can be difficult. Giving my whole self to those around me is getting easier, but it still doesn't come naturally. Will it ever?? I'm not sure. Tomorrow will be better, I hope.