The Path

Is there such a thing as balance? How do things seem to go spinning out of "my" control? I am always under the illusion that my life or just "a great" life is one that is orderly, predictable to some degree and calm. You know what I mean, I get up at this time, then do this, this and this. I have this time cut out for God during this time and everything is so "Brady Bunch". That is the extent of my imagination in what God will make of my life. Fortunately, God is saying, "NO! There is so much more for you, and since you can't imagine it, I will take you there. It will get difficult at times, you may not understand why I choose to take the paths we will take, but the key is that "we" are traveling together. When you are afraid, I will hold you under my wings, softly and tenderly. When you can't see because it is too dark, I will be your eyes and it is okay for you to keep your eyes closed. When you are distracted by this sinful, fallen world I will cover you with grace and ease your pain. There will be times that you must trust in my plan when it doesn't make sense, and know that I may be glorified more through your pain than through your wholeness. I know the tears you weep, but this path we are traveling will be so much more than you ever imagined. I am giving you more, more of ME."
In the midst of distraction of a sinful, fallen dying world I must search for you and find you, when I am tired, distracted, confused, and scared..I have to find you in it, feel you, see you, be with you. Help calm me, Help calm me.