All is quiet in the house, Clay is asleep on the couch, Matt is tucked in bed and Zach and Taylor are at the movies watching Bolt with Jessie. My cooking is finished for tomorrow, the dogs are sleeping at my feet and Flicka is playing on TV. The last couple of days I have felt a little somber, with each passing holiday, I know that my time with my boys will be gone. I will wake up one day and my house will be still and quiet and my children will have flown from my nest and built nests of their own. Each year puts me a little closer to this realization and is saddens me. I wish I could freeze time and we would always be together, loving, laughing, fighting and just being together. I hate change, even though it is inevitable. This holiday season I want to just be content in today, enjoy the time we are together and not put pressure on myself or others to fulfill some "perfect" holiday agenda I have. Tonight as I sit alone, I feel so loved and blessed. My house isn't perfectly cleaned, all of the laundry isn't finished, there are dirty dishes in the sink, but I am content and okay with the chaos. Maybe if I can live with the chaos in my house, I can learn to live with it in life in general. Just maybe!
Happy Thanksgiving!
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I came from Cindy's blog. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking and praying for your family. (((HUGS)))
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