Thursday, November 5, 2009

I'm Ready!

I'm changing things up around here. I think a new look is in order as I begin the "next level" as my boys would say. The "next level" is here. I have worked really hard to come this far, to open my heart up and look inside. I have battled the "boss" at each level in my life to journey on to the next, harder, more exciting levels. Each phase has taken time, time and more time. I have had to start over and take another try when I didn't pass over the obstacles that were in my way. Along the way I have made some friends, I have discovered parts of my heart that were really hard to reach. There have been times that I was blessed enough to have a traveler journey with me and help me to fight the "boss" then there have been times that I had to go it alone. I am still learning how to be gracious to those that are just starting the "first level" of their own journey. I have always been the "Dr. Phil" type of person, to suck it up and move on. This has helped me to survive my life, but I want more than to survive. There is treasure to be had and discovered. There is a princess to be unveiled. There will be times that I may need to be patient with myself as I try and try to conquer the fear that threatens to beat me, but I know I can do this. I am still learning how to love who I am, even the parts that threaten to shame me. I want to love others well, I want to have friends that can call me out and still love me without making me feel ashamed of who I am. I want to be loved well! So, the next 15 days I am seeking God for clues to the next level and what He can reveal. It may be tough, but I am excited to see what treasure we find together.