My Heart is Full!

My heart is full!  I know that may sound strange but, that is what is on my mind.  The summer has been filled with times when I thought my heart would literally break in two and there have been those few weeks before seeing my oncologist when my spirit was so uneasy, so uncertain.  But now as I sit in my living room, watching my youngest play the Wii and my oldest sitting with the glow of his laptop on his face, my heart is full.  I have a peace, you know that peace that is talked about in the bible, the peace that passes all understanding, I have "that" peace.  There is no other way to describe it, it is totally from God.  In reality there are many things going on in our lives that should make me a little crazy right now but, I'm not.  My heart is full and God is in total control of it all.  It feels so good to get out of the driver's seat and to be a passenger!!  The top is down, the wind is blowing in my hair and I'm enjoying the ride.  I don't even have my seatbelt on because I know that God will keep me safe.  I never thought I could feel this free, this content.  My hope is that I can continue to be a passenger and not grab the wheel, not jump at a sudden stop or bump in the road.  Today, my heart is full.